ANXIETY – MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE

It has taken every single ounce of courage in my body to upload this video. Maybe it’s pride? I don’t know. I felt led to share with the small platform that I do have in hopes of encouraging somebody else who may be struggling. You haven’t seen me talk about this much on social media, and you probably won’t ever again. In fact, I don’t talk about this in person to anyone other than my husband, parents, mother-in-law, and brother. (So don’t try! 😂) Haha no, it’s just something I’m not really willing to re-visit unless it can help someone else. You know? However, if you are someone who feels they can relate but you don’t have the courage to find help, I am here 💜.

 

Hydrogel Eye Masks

As a 31 year old busy mother of two, I usually need major help not looking completely WIPED OUT! One area where you can generally tell I’m exhausted are my eyes. I normally don’t get enough sleep, which leaves my eyes puffy. These cooling, firming Hydrogel Eye Maks have become a favorite of mine to liven my eyes up again in the mornings!

Pre-Makeup Hydrogel Eye Masks are designed to leave your eye area looking less-puffy and revitalized in just 10-15 minutes. Natural ingredients, like blueberry, raspberry and blackberry fruit extracts, impart an opulent, radiant glow, while they lock in moisture and supports skin’s firmness. Anti-aging peptides help give skin a lifted, tighter appearance. Hyaluronic acid and glycerin plump the look of skin, and humectants help to deliver intense hydration by attracting an retaining moisture from water in the air. Bye-bye dark circles.

Check out the link for more info:

https://www.kismetcosmetics.com/shop/eyes/hydrogel-eye-masks/ref/38/?campaign=HydrogelEyeMasks

Opulent Bronzing Lotion

To achieve this look, I used the self-tanning lotion in Dark from Loving Tan the night before. The next morning I applied the Kismet Cosmetics Opulent Bronzing Lotion all over my body. You can apply more or less, depending on the shade you are going for. This bronzing lotion creates a gorgeous, luminous glow in just 5 minutes. It creates a sun-kissed look for your date night or girls night out! This bronzing lotion is a MUST to achieve a quick tan, without the awful smell! It’s also Paraben-Free. Phthalate-Free. Cruelty-Free. USA Made.

Link:  https://www.kismetcosmetics.com/shop/body/opulent-bronzing-lotion/ref/38/?campaign=OpulentBronzingLotion

Coming Out of the Newborn Fog & PPD

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Happy 3 months to this sweet, precious soul that God blessed our family with on August 7, 2016. We officially survived the newborn stage. I say “survived” because I’m actually beginning to come out of one of the unhappiest, darkest times of my life. Everyone always asks how baby is doing, but here is why you should always ask how Mom is doing.

The night Ron was born, he was the little light in the middle of a dark stretch of time in that hospital in labor and delivery. The hospital had already lost one precious baby and they were about to lose another. They didn’t let us know what was going on until after our sweet Ron was delivered. It was a very somber couple of days and all I wanted to do was hold on to both of my boys and go home. We finally got to leave and I began to feel much better after we got back to our home.

The first month was exhausting, but little Ron and I bonded immediately and got closer each day. I had a little bit of the “baby blues”, but it was nothing compared to what I had with my firstborn. A little time went by and I actually said to my husband and parents, “Wow I just really feel pretty good and think I’m in the clear with being negatively affected by the crazy hormones!” I said that because they all know that I had a few signs of PPD when MB was born. Around week 7 postpartum with baby Ron, the hormones hit me like a freight train. Nobody tells you about the second wave around the second month PP that can get you. I began to completely come unraveled. I was more anxious than I have ever been in my life to the point I would shake like a leaf as soon as I would wake up in the morning. I couldn’t eat. I’m 5’7 and had gotten down to 117 lbs. I had headaches, was dizzy, and didnt want to interact with anyone. My biggest fear was not getting enough sleep. I was making something out of nothing and became so worried I wasn’t going to be able to get sleep that I was literally making myself sick. At this time, Ron was already only waking maybe twice per night and going right back to sleep, so obviously there wasn’t even an issue. Thank God for my husband. Oh my gosh I can’t even begin to tell you how this man held me together. He’s the one having to go to an office everyday but HE stayed up until 12:30-1:00 every morning to “dream feed” our baby so I could get a longer stretch of sleep. He bonded with our brand new baby during this time because he felt so bad for him. He knew I was sick. I don’t ever want to talk about that time again or even give details of it because it’s just dark and it’s ugly. All I know is that I’m lucky to be a type of person to where if something is getting to me and bothering me I literally cannot hold it in. I began to feel like I would literally burst open if I didn’t express myself to my husband, my parents, and my brother. My husband and my parents literally (almost physically) had to pull me out of this funk. And thank God they could.

We are 13 weeks postpartum now and I feel like me again. Little Ron is honestly one of the “easiest” babies that I have ever come across, which left me confused on what my problem was. Postpartum hormones are no joke though. Eventually I will detail this situation out, but for now it’s too soon and it’s too real. If you have experienced this, you know that. If you do experience this, you need to talk to you’re husband, doctor, and family. If you have a family member who just had a baby, always ask how mommy is doing. She’s been through so much physically and emotionally and if you have never had a baby, you have no idea.

Happy 3 months my precious man. I’m truly so happy to be able to enjoy you and everything you bring to this family.

Deer Halloween Makeup

 

I haven’t had time to play in makeup lately with a newborn, but now that we are approaching 3 months and sleeping better, I’m beginning to see some light at the end of the exhaustion-filled newborn stage. Well, for now.

I’m obsessed with Halloween, so I couldn’t pass up an opportunity to play around with makeup in celebration of it. I didn’t do a tutorial because, well when you have two young children and naps are unpredictable, I just didn’t see the point in trying. The makeup alone took over an hour and putting together a tutorial would have added another two! One day, one day. For now, hopefully you can get some inspiration from this look!

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